When you love someone, you become mindful of every word and deed, every move you make. You fear that you may not be good enough, not gentle enough, not good enough to him, that he may not eat well, sleep well, or that he may get tired. You worry that he might get angry because of your unlovability, that he might ignore you, and you fret over everything about him, often forgetting about yourself.
You want to love him as you love yourself, to give him care and warmth, and to promise yourself a beautiful future. You imagine a wonderful life in the future, with him by your side; it must be very romantic. You can watch the sea together, visit the tree houses in Sanya, and take in the night view of the Pearl River; that must be very happy, right? You wish you could be more perfect, just a little more, always feeling that you don’t match his goodness, his kindness, his thoughtfulness. You always think that if only you could be better, just a little better, ideally shining on him like sunlight, being by his side when he needs you the most, accompanying him through every happy and unhappy day.
How can one love someone well?
You give a large part of your love to him and still feel it’s not enough. You wish you could do something for him. When he is tired, you wish you could sleep on his behalf; when he is hungry, you wish you could turn into a box of rice; when he is thirsty, you wish you could become that glass of water. Thinking this way, your eyes are filled with the taste of happiness, the taste of being in love…
How can one love someone well, how should one love, in order to never part for a lifetime? You give yourself courage, but can you always be like this? You are afraid that one day, when the feelings are gone, when love can no longer continue, the remaining time will be spent reminiscing about him. You really fear that the timing of love is wrong, and the separation is heart-wrenching…
Care for him carefully, gently, considerately, cherish him, just as he said, even if there is no future, you can’t control what comes next. Who knows what the future will be like? Should you give up just because the future is unknown?
Loving someone very much is a very beautiful feeling. Keep it in your heart, be happy alone, and slowly smile as you think, guarding a love, staying quietly without leaving, without giving up, this is also good…