Sitting alone in front of the computer, playing a sad love song on repeat, quietly getting lost in the melancholic music, closing my eyes, at this moment, I miss her so much, the one I’ve always deeply loved, the one I never had the chance to be with. I suddenly understand a saying, there is a kind of deep love called no longer contacting.
Is there someone who once made you miss them frantically, but now you desperately try to forget them? Perhaps you once longed for them, perhaps you once were crazy for them, perhaps you once were devoted, perhaps you once deeply loved, perhaps you were once deeply hurt, so many maybes, so many pasts, what language should be used to narrate those unforgettable and fatal pasts? No matter how good the plot is, it is ultimately a play, which has already ended, always emotionally deep, but the fate is shallow? However, I still cling to those of my past, now, I can only use words to hold all the thoughts and deep attachments that my heart cannot hold.
There is a kind of love in this world, clearly deep love, but it is destined not to be perfect; clearly deep love, but it has to leave; clearly deep love, but it has to wait painfully. There is a kind of love, no longer contact, but desperately thinking, knowing that this has no result, will only empty the wait, hurt again and again, but I still wait, never abandoning this deep affection, knowing that there is no bright road ahead, but the heart has already been irretrievable.
I have always been in deep love, I have no extravagant demands, no complaints, no right or wrong, no prayers, I can only immerse myself in such an ending, letting time pass like water…
My love still waits in place, the silent days continue to be staged, after leaving, every thought is entrusted to these words, perhaps only I can understand the pain of this deep love but not being able to be together, at specific times, in specific situations, I choose to deliberately escape, which is also the only way to save myself, and it is also a way to save my deep love for her.
Many people think that after they turn around, they will definitely be able to meet the person they love again, what is left in their hearts is all the hope of seeing each other again tomorrow. But every time this person lets go, in the moment of turning around, something changes completely. The sun sets, and before it rises again, some people bid farewell to their loved ones forever! I remember you said, some words are destined to rot in the heart, some hurts need to be resolved together! I think, it also includes that I love you.
Some people are destined to go further and further, some people even if thousands of miles apart, even if they can’t see each other’s faces, they will always be hand in hand, despite the obstacles of thousands of mountains and rivers, still deeper than the sea, further than love.
In life, the most difficult thing to seek is true feelings, the most difficult to understand is emotions; the most difficult to let go is true feelings; the most unforgettable is the person who has entered the heart; the most difficult to seek is to be understood by others. Some people, if they can’t come, can only leave; some feelings, if they can’t be smoothed out, can only be abandoned; some pains, if they can’t be driven away, can only be forgotten; some happiness, if it can’t be kept, can only be remembered. Some pasts, about pain, can only be buried in the bottom of the heart. Some touches, about tears, just need to flow gently in the heart! Some gentleness, as long as you think about it gently, can be warm and sunny; some sadness, even if you cry with a smile, is also a sad happiness.